The following is the homily I gave this morning at the University Advent service.
This time of year, I always miss my home town desperately. It doesn’t have very much to recommend it – small, rural, remote, a little unglamorous and out of the way, perhaps – but it does boast one of the finest churches in Europe.
Over a thousand years ago, the resolute and saintly Queen Etheldreda decided that this damp, isolated place was the spot for her new monastic foundation. Over a thousand years later, the citizens of Ely still flock to her great abbey church to worship God.
Advent Sunday in the cathedral was the highlight of my worshipping year, and I miss it. The service always begins with the congregation sitting in total darkness in the vast cavernous interior, until a solo treble breaks the darkness with a word of hope. Slowly, through readings and carols, we trace the story of God’s unfolding call and promise, and the cathedral gradually becomes illuminated, inside and out, candles and lights bursting into brightness over the course of an hour or so until all is resplendent and glorious, ancient stone walls bathed in light, stained glass lit from outside, the gorgeous central lantern tower now a beacon for the surrounding farmland for miles and miles. The drama and choreography always staggered me.
The story of light overcoming darkness is just about the most powerful there is. When told powerfully, when seen and heard, it is miraculous in its ability to transform us. But, clearly, in this season of Advent, there is, if you will, a lingering shadow, a question that threatens to disturb the beauty of our celebration. It is the central question of Advent, which we neatly sidestep or ignore most of the time in favor of trimming trees or sending gifts or organizing parties: the question about why, if God indeed entered this world in Jesus Christ, so much is left undone, so much pain and struggle and suffering and violence remain. It is the question about how on earth, if the story is true, the mess is ever going to be resolved and the pain eased. How is the light ultimately going to triumph over the darkness?
It’s not a new question, of course. The early Christians were faced with the difficult task of explaining, firstly why God would choose to enter the world in such a dirty and untidy and inglorious way and then live such an obscure life before dying a criminal, shameful death. And then, secondly, they had to explain the gap between the promise of his coming and the state the world was still in afterwards, with so much undone, with God’s people still oppressed and persecuted, with nations still at war and people still in pain and grief.
Some Christians have always suggested that progress itself, the unfolding of history, would bring with it, irresistibly, the fullness of God’s coming Kingdom. We are moving inexorably, the thinking goes, towards the glories that Jesus envisaged and promised. Good for us. But, though technology and the standard of living have improved immeasurably for some, I’m left unconvinced that we’re any nearer to achieving justice, or kindness, or significant growth towards dignity, peace, our full human potential and a equal sharing of the world’s resources. I’d be thrilled if you proved me wrong.
Many of the first Christians supposed that Jesus must be about to return very soon and bring it all to a glorious apocalyptic completion. The prophetic imagination went into overdrive amid some very difficult times of persecution and the very difficult Book of Revelation is the result. It in turn has spawned lots of third rate Christian fiction about people being Left Behind and a good deal of foolish speculation about dates and times which Jesus said all along and from the first was pointless and a waste of time because even he himself didn’t know.
So, what are we left with? And how can we make any sense of all the years in between?
Well, there’s something vital to me in the very problem that gave rise to much of this in the first place, that, when God did decide to enter this world, he did so, not in power and splendour, but in poverty, pain and enormous obscurity.
I’m not sure why, when he came that way, so counter-culturally, so unexpectedly and humbly and profoundly disturbingly, in the squalor of the manger and the scandal of illegitimacy, we look for him to finish what he started then in a profoundly different manner, or as we might say, in a way which denies the grace and truth of it. He could have resolved the world’s problems by force in the first place, if he’d wanted. He didn’t. He came to an unmarried mother, to filthy shepherds, to a bunch of Zoroastrians on camels, to the compromised, struggling rabble that is people like me and you.
But God, you see, was being consistent in arriving that way. Over 500 years before Jesus was born, God’s people, Israel, were in the midst of a terrible crisis. They had been comprehensively beaten by the Babylonians, their beloved, sacred Jerusalem had been destroyed and they had been taken into exile, far from home. All was lost. Their dreams of ruling the world in the name of their God lay in tatters. Their hopes, of Israel at the center of a world which looked to her for guidance, wisdom and direction, were dashed. They were homeless, stateless, destitute, refugees, their Temple reduced to rubble, their pride gone and their national identity devastated.
But in the midst of this disastrous, dreadful calamity, a new word came through the prophet. It was the word we listened to earlier, a word of comfort and renewal. God wasn’t done. And battered, grieving, forlorn Israel was to have a new future and a new identity. No longer was her vocation one of control, or might. No longer should she expect God to vindicate her through dramatic divine intervention. Nor was future military conquest on the table. Rather, Israel was to draw the world to her God, to the light, through the power of her example, the beauty of her common life, the sheer, winsome glory of her presence among the nations. As Jerusalem was rebuilt, the people of Israel were challenged by the prophet to accept the leadership of the nations by becoming the servant of the nations. God was at work in her life, on the inside, from within, drawing her from the brink of despair to the uplands of purpose and delight. And it was in a manner entirely faithful to this prophecy that Jesus ultimately entered the world.
This is light in darkness: not a God who enforces a solution upon us, but one rather who makes his unlooked-for presence known to us in the midst of our pain, in the depths of our despair. A God who surprises us by appearing in the middle of it all with us, and invites us to share with him in the complex work of unpicking the Gordian knot we’ve made of the human condition. A God who asks us to participate in the costly work of setting ourselves and others free. Rather than looking to the heavens for our salvation, we find it at our feet, suffering, serving, drawing from us our full human potential and capability, and teaching us – painfully, slowly, patiently, refusing to be discouraged or disillusioned – the way of love, which is a light strong enough to blaze in every darkness. At the cancer diagnosis, at the failure of the peace talks, in the depths of depression or addiction or despair, faced with the grades that shatter our idea of who we are, when all seems alien and strange and comfortless, the hymn writer reminds us, God “sojourns in this vale of tears, and Jesus is his name”. God is born into the poverty, even of my heart, even of my existence. And he transfigures it, gently, lovingly, humbly, from within. There is light in our darkness, for we are not alone. We have never been alone. God is with us.
Two years ago, I found myself in a place called the ‘Grain of Sand’. It was a place of poverty such as I’d never
experienced before, a slum, on the edge of a shanty town, in one of the poorest parts of Guatemala City. Its several dozen inhabitants, made homeless by civil war, built their flimsy shacks on top of the city’s sewage drains, clinging to the side of a steep hill and hoping that the rains would not wash them away. I can call to mind the sight – and smell – of that place even now.
Most remarkable about those who lived there were their hope and joy, which gave the lie to who was rich and who poor in our relationship. The women were members of a co-operative which, by their common labor, made possible a better life for their children and their community in the future. Their craft-making had paid for a school, a healthcare center, and job training for themselves and their neighbors. Families were slowly being enabled to move out of the Grain of Sand and into the safer homes in the town. They treated us with infinite generosity although we were from a country which had done much to create their poverty. And they were Christians: strict Catholic and evangelical Protestant, and everything in between, bound together by the same firm conviction that God in Christ was in the mess with them, in the pain and the poverty and the injustice, promising that their struggle was his struggle, their fight his fight, and their vision, his vision.
I asked one of their leaders, Esperanza – her very name means ‘hope’ – why they called this place of destitution ‘The Grain of Sand’. “Because”, she replied, “we have a saying. Where there is hope even as small as a grain of sand, miracles will follow. God is with us: and so we have hope.”
Charles Wesley wrote:
Emptied of his majesty,
Of his dazzling glories shorn,
Being’s source begins to be,
And God himself is born.
“And the light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has never been able to put it out.”
Amen.